She is gone now.

The one i love, i care, i dear has long gone. She has become a dream, a memory, a pieces of puzzle in my heart. She has long gone. The one that need me, want me and want to be with me has long gone. Every moment that we spent, she gave me happiness, kindness, warm and make me calm. She bring music to my empty life and she gave me a future where two of us together and only us. She motivate me to work forward that future and ready to sacrifice everything. When she lost, i try my best to stay by her side all the time. She make me greedy and jealous over little thing. I want to know everything about her, ask her everything that i don't know and capture every moment of her. So if one day when she ask me anything, i can say "yes, i was there" or "yes, I know". Now she has long gone and you are just a girl with same face, voice and scent. The smile she show me is different from the one you show to other. No matter what happen, everything is already a pass. Thank you for bringing her into my life. She change me and make me realize my definition of love. She will stay in my heart forever. Hope she see this. GOOD BYE MY BABY, I LOVE YOU

What should i do....

What i have is becoming had. What i want is becoming what i can't. What i wish is becoming what i dream. What i promise is becoming old story. Pain and suffer is all i bring to you. I only wish to have a clear answer before we can move on. Who am i to you, what should i do, what can i do, what you plan to do about us ? I am lost. leaving is not an option, move forward is not an option, stay where i am will not change anything between us. I din't ask for more but i ask for better. Why can't i have a simple peaceful life with you where no 3rd party join in and say nonsense. I don't like the way we currently heading to. It was like we are destroying each other. I start losing you and can't get hold of myself. I don't want our story to end. It is not that i am not ready for it. Is that i don't want to have this day to come where you are not here with me anymore. I want you too much and i need you to stay with me. I really want to know why we are heading this way.  Where is the problem occur. We start to don't understand each other anymore. We change because of what other say about us. Is this because my feeling is not strong enough to hold you tight. I really don't want to cause you more pain but staying where we are will eventually harm you more. I choose to love you, dear you, take care of you and protect you but at the end what did i really do ?