What should i do....

What i have is becoming had. What i want is becoming what i can't. What i wish is becoming what i dream. What i promise is becoming old story. Pain and suffer is all i bring to you. I only wish to have a clear answer before we can move on. Who am i to you, what should i do, what can i do, what you plan to do about us ? I am lost. leaving is not an option, move forward is not an option, stay where i am will not change anything between us. I din't ask for more but i ask for better. Why can't i have a simple peaceful life with you where no 3rd party join in and say nonsense. I don't like the way we currently heading to. It was like we are destroying each other. I start losing you and can't get hold of myself. I don't want our story to end. It is not that i am not ready for it. Is that i don't want to have this day to come where you are not here with me anymore. I want you too much and i need you to stay with me. I really want to know why we are heading this way.  Where is the problem occur. We start to don't understand each other anymore. We change because of what other say about us. Is this because my feeling is not strong enough to hold you tight. I really don't want to cause you more pain but staying where we are will eventually harm you more. I choose to love you, dear you, take care of you and protect you but at the end what did i really do ?